I've never been in combat, nor raped, so where does my PTSD come from?
I invite all comments, including negative ones.
1973 – enlisted as navy aircrew
1974 – mugged, pistol whipped, stomped unconscious
1975 – waterboarded four times during POW training
1976 – shot at by North Korean missile, inflight
1977 – attempted robbery at knifepoint
1978 – saved best friend from falling out of aircraft, inflight
1985 – begin nightmares of POW camp with facial torture, also violent thoughts all day, all night. So I stay drunk off duty. Drink myself to sleep routinely.
1995 – retire from military, get married and quit drinking.
1996 – begin therapy for adjustment disorder: zoloft
2005 – after 40 failed interviews, I get a job: fired after 8 months
2009 – after 10 more failed interviews, I get a job: fired after 24 months
2011 – I finally realize that if I can't get or hold a job, I must be disabled.
2012 – after a year with a civilian psychiatrist, I'm diagnosed with severe depression and PTSD
My question: where's the PTSD come from? Waterboarding? Combination of assaults?