I'm 70% disabled with 100% IU. I can't get SSDI because I have been disabled since leaving the service and I don't have enough credits to rate SSDI. Isn't that a nice Catch 22? Disabled, can't work, so they won't give you disability because you COULDN'T WORK!! LOL!! Anyway - I cannot live on what I make in the expensive city I live in and have anywhere near the quality of life that I want. So I really want to try to work. But I'm told that I can't even TRY to work because if I am able to work at all, for any length of time at all, I could lose my IU. So I applied to Voc Rehab to go back to school and get a skill or career education and they want me to give up my IU in order to be able to go back to school to try to get a skill so I can work again. My doctor has to say that I'm NOT unemployable before they will try to help me BE employable. Doesn't it make sense that they would want you to TRY TO WORK so they don't have to pay to send you to school or keep paying for you to live??? And I'm not giving up my IU and end up on the street, homeless. So my college counselor is telling me to go get evaluated again, since she feels I should be flat 100% and not just because of IU. Then they would have to send me to school and not on Voc Rehab. I'm afraid to do that though - I'm afraid with the influx of physically disabled vets, that they might decide I don't rate my IU or my disability to get me off of VA disability and make room for someone else (I know - I'm paranoid) and may take it away or reduce it and I couldn't pay my rent. I really want to be off of VA disability altogether and WORKING. But I have no idea how I'm going to accomplish this because other disabilities prevent me from standing for long periods of time, typing (which is about the only skill I have), and my PTSD will not allow me to be in an enclosed space for long periods of time. I feel like I'm living in a giant Catch-22. For a long time, I was married and just took care of my kids and volunteered with the PTA and stuff. Now that I'm divorced and out here on my own, it's TERRIFYING to think what would happen to me if I lost my VA disability before I'm ready to return to work. I just hate worrying that my check won't be there on the 1st of the month. That some callous politician will decide to reduce or end VA disability. That Congress won't vote to fund the government next time it's time to approve the budget. So many fears and worries.