Hello everyone. Thanks for all the great advice I have received on this site!
I was approved for unemployability in Feb 2011. With my letter I received an application for Voc/Rehab and filled it out. I really wanted to get back to work and thought this was the way. Yesterday I had my meeting with the counselor and he told me that if I were to be accepted into the program I would take the chance of losing my TDIU. I explained that I have been unemployed for three years and didn't, think that I could survive without the compensation. I told him that I thought that I would lose it after the program when I had A job. He said that as soon as I am accepted into the program I was at risk for losing benefits. He also said that I was getting so much in compensation ( I have five children, three in college) why would I want to give it up, and then said "hell, you make more than I do after taxes." I am 47 with 13 years towards retirement and 22 years for pay purposes with the military and want to continue. Sitting at home is making me worse, I suffer from PTSD, OCD BIPOLAR II, GAD with panic disorder and several physical disabilities as well. In order to not lose my benefits he had me sign a statement saying that I withdraw my request because of substance abuse and mental health concerns. Now I am more depressed than ever. Thanks for reading and any input would be greatly appreciated!