Spent over a year lurking... almost feel like I know some of you even though I've only posted two or three times. I think this is a great site with an immense repository of useful information and I have to thank you all for being a catharsis as well as that source of valuable information. I'm a father of two and husband... PTSD at the VA 70% and I'm also still in the guard and work as a dual status GS for now, until my MEB. I have a lot of fear. I have so many doubts about any future; however between some of the folks here at VBN and at the VA I realize that I am indeed fortunate to still have a family and a job. A big fear is that when I lose my military and civil service positions my family will suffer the consequences of having an 'unemployed' messed up dad and I will downward spiral internally to the point of no hope. Well, that's just depressing... Anyway, I wanted to thank the kind folks that contribute here and thank whoever started the forum for folks like me who don't post much but lurk a lot. I bet there are more of me on this forum who just look and learn; so please keep the discussions going, keep the topics rolling... you just really don't know who you might be helping. Thanks.